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I am really trying to show everyone that I am serious. I know that I have the talent, the potential, something’s there in me…in my heart. I feel it. Just as Phil Collins felt it in the air.

It’s lurking waiting to be unleashed at the right moment. But, it’s aparant and clear as the lenses in my glasses when I see through them that I am meant to something beyond what I can actually understand at this point in my life. Or what anyone else can understand for that matter. The important thing is that I believe in me. You don’t have to now, but you will. One day, you will.

I don’t come across many people that have the potential to be really good at so many things. Especially in the arts. I write music, I rap/sing, I draw, I write film scripts, I’m a video editor, I am somewhat of a photographer, and I am an aspiring filmmaker. I do want to be a director in the future…but the music is my first love. I have to conquer that first. The point that I  try to make all the time is that, I am good at this stuff. It’s quality art and it’s heartfelt. Everything I do is me painting my heart and the way I see the world onto the canvas of my choice in order to share with the world. It heals my pain. And like what art represents to so many other people… that, “get them through their day” art. I do it for that reason and so that it heals thier pain.

This page is just another addition in my catalog proving that I can do and be everything that I say that I want to be. Click the Photography link above and open the door to another chamber in my world.

She said that I’m going to be infamous!

Live to be famous, or become infamous and be remembered forever? I’m joining forces with the latter.

A young lady once told me, after working with me for 3 short months on a project, that I would one day be infamous. I’m assuming this notion was all based on my work performance and the way that I presented myself.  I never understood that prophecy or knew what it would mean for me until we politicked recently and she explained to me what that really means. I always said that I wanted to be an influential figure in my life. Influential for all the right reasons. Set standards and examples for so the young men coming up behind me will have someone to aspire to be like. It’s hard to be a role model or someone in the spotlight and live a life that detaches you from negativity, evils, or something that taints your image. Some try, I would hope, many could care less, and few ever live up to that. It’s sad. There are really no good role models left out there. Especially for black men, and blacks in general. We are forced to find our role models in entertainment. Everyone has some dirt on their feet from their walks in life. We are human,  inherintley imperfect and I love it. Why do I need to walk around trying to be Christ like? I don’t even think Christ was perfect. He’s a human isn’t he? Humans have flaws, no? Hm…

All of the people that I look up to and strive to be like have come from environments that can make you cringe. They have done terrible things that where the result of circumstance. I can relate to them. I know that same environment. Maybe not through and through but I have seen what they have become.  They are some of the most amazingly talented, intelligent, and inspiring people that I have witnessed.

As I try to telescope out my window into my future I am trying to see if I can truly be that role model for the kid(s) who are in my position now. Unfortunately I can’t see that far yet, of who I will become, it’s too blurry. I know who I want to  be… so, for the moment I just try to keep reminding myself.

Where do I want to go?

The top.

Who do I want to be?

A Legend.

Why do I want what seems so out of reach for just the average joe?

Because I have slaved, fought, bled, cried, and slaved some more. In the conception of those I have created art to free myself of the pain and harsh memories, and you know what? I damn sure feel like I deserve to be great. I think about the future, because I’m fascinated by it. It’s my love affair. I want to be the future of strong black men who don’t lead our people astray.

I am the future. Simply, because I am still living. Much to attest for a black man.

Walk Hard…The Troy Buchanan Story

I have officially decided to leave Rhythm and Hues after what will be two feature films, and one test project. What an amazing experience I have had being here. Simply, hands down, and unadulterated the best company I have ever worked for. That’s a lot coming from me. I have worked for a lot of companies, and I have hated them all. The fact of the matter is, I cannot continue being a PA. I need to go after my dreams. No hard feelings R+H, I love you all.

So what’s next for me? Well, I’m still working on finishing this album, script #2, and of course my ,”what would be awesome day job “- a fashion model. I am getting a little closer with the latter. I just have to get some professional pictures done. I was told that the ones that I took were just not good enough, albeit, ” You have the look and you’ve got killer eyes” is what was said. So, that tells me I just have to cough up my money and get some good pictures taken in order to make this happen. Wish me luck! My only concern is from now until that happens…money. What am I going to do? Solstice (my part-time) can’t pay all my bills. Well, I’m a hustler (in a hard-working man sense), I have grinded (no Tony Hawk affiliation), and I have been through worse. Like my homie, Mark, told me. Thug it out.